killing time.

April 24, 2016

spring is springing up all over the place and i’m killing time ’til summer.  school is fine, though i do occasionally despair of our future, thinking some of these little nippers will be running things when i get old and broken, but there are enough good ones to make up for the annoyances of immature high school kids.  for every annoying jerk there are ten average kids and probably half of an outstanding kid to balance out the equation–still more good than bad, even on a bad day.

i suppose that’s about the same as san francisco–it sucks to feel under constant scrutiny by my landlords, looking for a way to boot me, it sucks to see the city swallowed up by soulless assholes who don’t even really live here, since they spend so much of their time taking their private land yachts down to their tech playgrounds of the south, but, still–more good than bad.

i’ll keep hanging on.

i can’t imagine i ever will be, but it’s supposed to be a long winter–we’ll see how it goes.

anyway, things are going along fine.  school is good, life is good, pain levels are shitty, but two out of three ain’t bad.

maybe my life is crumbling around me…sort of hard to tell.

well, nothing is really crumbling.  some things are sort of slouching off the scene.  eh.  at least my fever is gone and i’m not quite so discombobulated now.

well.

January 7, 2016

i’m feeling unsettled and like all of a sudden all the rules have changed and no one told me.  i’m hoping this is a touch of the crazy and not actually true, but i guess time will tell.

happy new year.

December 31, 2015

i have been in a school environment for so long that i never tend to think of january as the beginning of the year–it’s the middle, for me.  also, new year’s eve has a super shitty track record for me over the years, so i tend to just ignore the whole thing other than being bitter that i can’t just go get a drink at the bar without the hoopla.

that said, happy new year to us all;  let’s hope for a good one, right?

this year has been–has been a year, i guess.  i can’t think of a thing that marked out last year at this time from now, really.

there has been loss, but nothing too close or too unexpected.

there have been gains.

mostly, there has been me, going on, holding fairly steady, making a little progress.

not a bad year.  in fact, i think i’m going to call it:  2015;  it was a pretty good year.

this morning i went to SCRAP with tracy–after a couple false moves wherein i scampered up and attempted to enter my neighbor’s daughter’s car…twice.

awesome-giant bag of fabric for a couple specific things and then i cut myself off and paid.  while i was waiting for tracy to finish up–yes, i sort of lost her, but i knew she’d turn up!, i noticed one of my favorite kids from school and i got to put in a plug for the school library’s collection of books on clothing alteration and such–awesome and not awkward, which is the best kind of student sighting to have.  better than hearing “librarian!  that’s my librarian!” as you’re leaving a bar.

had a wonderful time and laughed and laughed with tracy–she took me to a giant dollar store down in the excelsior.  i was incredibly thrilled to find these men’s XL swim trunks by Golvin Kloin:

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the cashier actually said, “do you want to buy those?”

“yes, i do!” i declared, proudly.

oh, man.  so funny.

spent the afternoon prewashing and cutting fabric.  tomorrow, i sew!

 

 

 

i had a birthday.

December 9, 2015

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it was a really nice weekend–ben arranged a party for me at hotel zetta, with zoe bartending and cupcakes and all my friends.  i couldn’t have asked for a nicer time or better company.  it made me feel very lucky and loved.

wombat poop is square!

November 25, 2015

life is pretty good.

things are going well at school;  work is pleasant PLUS it’s nearly vacation season, then end of fall semester and then spring semester flies by with february week, spring break and then it’s summer!  i’m super-stoked to be going to this nerd infographics lecture by tufte in december, too.

i’ve been a bit giddy–if one can say that’s the combination of happiness and anxiety, at least–on the social front lately. i’ve met some new people, gotten to reconnect with old friends, eaten, drunk and made very merry in a variety of fun and satisfying ways.  it’s always an ebb and flow, but i was feeling pretty down around the anniversary of maureen’s death and my dad’s birthday and just the last couple months, in general, but i think i’m shaking it off a little.  i’m trying, at least.

also, wombat poop is square, which is kind of amazing.  i believe i am going to have to look up what, ahem, anatomical design causes this shape.

san andreas

November 11, 2015

so, i’m trying to watch san andreas with napoleon–which was a challenge on many levels–but on top of various aesthetic challenges, every time there is a rumble, some sort of motion-sensitive toy somewhere in my apartment is being set off.

the sound is sort of a diabolical meow followed my an indistinct cackle. i just thought it was some weird earthquake cries of terror! thing with bad sound, at first, and then it took me at least half the movie to figure out where it was coming from, after which i just decided to ignore it for the rest of the movie because, really, was it hurting anything?

probably the most entertaining thing about the movie, really.

upstream color

November 7, 2015

wow, intense movie.  i wish it were subtitled, but i’m not sure that would have actually helped me understand any more than i already do…it just bugs me to miss dialogue, even though i imagine from the sound mix, we are meant to.

visually–again, just wow.  the sensuality of kris’s hands and feet on the sheet and then the parasite.  everything good was always just in danger of tipping to the bad.  incredibly artful in all composition.

i don’t know what to do with it, but it’s in my brain now.